Rejection from Morrigan?

As Samhain approaches, I've been feeling the inkling that I need to honor Morrigan. It's something I've been thinking about for the past few months and something that I plan to do slowly and simply since I do not already have a relationship with her. I know it isn't to be taken lightly.

I am unsure if she is calling out to me.

I decided to pull 2 cards from my Shapeshifter Tarot Deck and asked the following questions:

• What is my current relationship with Morrigan?
• What can I do to improve my relationship?

The answer to the first question took me by surprise. The card I pulled was "Rejection."
The answer to the second question was "The Shapeshifter," a card that signals a time of self-introspection.

At first glance, I got the impression that she was immediately rejecting forming a relationship with me for whatever reason. I can't begin to understand Her needs and Her goals. I admit that I was a little bit discouraged and I wondered for a split second what could be wrong with me. That was the moment something clicked.

Perhaps all of this is a test to determine if I will stick with it. Perhaps this is her way of telling me that I need to decide what I want before a final decision is made. I choose, possibly incorrectly, to believe that she is giving me a moment to think things over and make a rational decision and go from there.

I still intend to honor her during my Samhain celebration with a poem that I will write (I should get on that). I reckon that showing someone respect isn't a bad thing even if there's a possibility that they don't want anything to do with you. At most, she'd ignore me and at worst, she'd scold me for annoying her.

For the followers of Morrigan, has something like this happened to you? I'd love to get your perspective.

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On a side note, as I finished writing this post, I was overcome with the scent of apples. What could that mean?

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The Sabbats - A Reflective Episode

I've been feeling a disconnect with some of the sabbats as of late. Even if I'm not able to do a full on ritual, I still make time to pause and reflect on the wheel of the year and the changing of the seasons. I just don't feel a connection to Ostara like I do with Imbolc. I've been searching for possible reasons why, and even going so far as to theorize that everyone likely has sabbats that they don't identify with as much as the others. But my answer led me somewhere that I didn't expect: only celebrating the 4 greater sabbats.

Samhain, Imbolc, Beltane, and Lughnasadh. Those are the ones I'm going to celebrate for the next year, starting after this upcoming Samhain. Then, I'll take some time to pause and reflect on the change and determine if it makes sense to continue or if I should return to the main Wiccan concept of the sabbats. And I'll also continue my personal research into what the Irish did; not to hope to copy their practices word for word, but as a starting point for my own personal practice.

I'm not a Celtic Recon but I have been reading a lot of related blog posts, websites, and book recommendation lists in order to get a general overview of the Irish way of doing things all those years ago. All my research points to the fact that they celebrated these four sabbats and not those on the quarters (Yule, Ostara, Litha, and Mabon). Not a lot of factual information survives from those times in my opinion, but one note of interest is that the due dates on a lot of their bills has been recorded as corresponding with the dates of the greater sabbats and not the lesser ones as one might find in other cultures.

There's also the ability to correlate Irish deities that I seek to honor and revere with these specific celebrations (though to be fair, this isn't exclusive to any particular pantheon or culture).

You can honor the Morrigan at Samhain.
You can honor Brid at Imbolc.
Danu can be honored at Beltane.
Lugh, naturally, at Lughnasadh.

So I'm going to give it a try and see if my perception shifts. I'm still considering myself a Wiccan for the time being even though others might disagree with my assessment. I'd love to hear from you if you only celebrate the greater sabbats, or even the lesser ones. Everyone is welcome at my little corner of the internet.