Rejection from Morrigan?

As Samhain approaches, I've been feeling the inkling that I need to honor Morrigan. It's something I've been thinking about for the past few months and something that I plan to do slowly and simply since I do not already have a relationship with her. I know it isn't to be taken lightly.

I am unsure if she is calling out to me.

I decided to pull 2 cards from my Shapeshifter Tarot Deck and asked the following questions:

• What is my current relationship with Morrigan?
• What can I do to improve my relationship?

The answer to the first question took me by surprise. The card I pulled was "Rejection."
The answer to the second question was "The Shapeshifter," a card that signals a time of self-introspection.

At first glance, I got the impression that she was immediately rejecting forming a relationship with me for whatever reason. I can't begin to understand Her needs and Her goals. I admit that I was a little bit discouraged and I wondered for a split second what could be wrong with me. That was the moment something clicked.

Perhaps all of this is a test to determine if I will stick with it. Perhaps this is her way of telling me that I need to decide what I want before a final decision is made. I choose, possibly incorrectly, to believe that she is giving me a moment to think things over and make a rational decision and go from there.

I still intend to honor her during my Samhain celebration with a poem that I will write (I should get on that). I reckon that showing someone respect isn't a bad thing even if there's a possibility that they don't want anything to do with you. At most, she'd ignore me and at worst, she'd scold me for annoying her.

For the followers of Morrigan, has something like this happened to you? I'd love to get your perspective.

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On a side note, as I finished writing this post, I was overcome with the scent of apples. What could that mean?

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Dressing A Candle

To be honest, I was never one for dressing candles. It seemed an unnecessary step and I never really gave it a try for fear of doing something wrong. In the past, the most I would do would be to sprinkle some herbs at the top of the candle once some of the wax had melted.


I have recently changed my ways.


It seems like common sense to state that you get out of something what you put into it. The statement is true and I can feel the difference in a candle's energy after adding essential oils and herbs.


I took a white pillar candle and poured some Palo Santo essential oil onto my hands. I smeared that stuff all over the sides of the candle as well as the top. Then, I sprinkled a mixture of Irish Moss and White Sage that I broke down a bit in my mortar and pestle. I placed it in the correct position on my altar and lit it up so that it could start illuminating my space and cleansing my altar.


The purpose of this story of mine is to tell you not to be afraid to try new things. You might just discover that the new way is better than whatever it is that you've been doing. Putting in a little extra effort makes for a better finished product, especially where spirituality is concerned.


Dressing a candle is a witchcraft practice and I see no conflict in using it in my practice of Irish Polytheism. It's easy enough to imagine that the Irish of yesteryear did something similar (I have no proof of this, it's just what I think to be true), but this practice works for me today. Since I'm not a CR, I see no problem in embracing this modern technique that is found in so many belief systems.


Some might balk and say I'm practicing incorrectly. Those folks should feel free to leave me a comment below and tell me the "right" way to do this. Perhaps I'll learn something new again.

I am...

I am still alive.

I am still an Irish polytheist.

I am still a follower of Danu and Lugh.

I am not perfect.

I am not yet at my full potential.

I am still learning.


What's this all about? Well, it's been so long since I've posted on this blog that I thought I needed to break the ice with a few simple statements about myself. My spirituality hasn't been a priority the last few months and I've missed that aspect of myself, so I've decided that I'm going to work harder on doing something every day.

There's no use worrying about past mistakes when there are new ones I could be making. Right?